Today marks the 1st decade of City Harvest Church Kuala Lumpur and the dedication of our new building. This is my home, and the place that has shaped, groomed and transformed me.
I've been away from this church since Oct 2009 after I quit my job as a full time staff. There are a couple of reasons to why I decided not to attend this church anymore, but hating this church is not one of it. I wont tell you all of the reasons, but one of it has to do with my personal growth.
Having appear once in a blue moon at church does give me pressure, as people would question on my disappearance. Sorry to say that sometimes, its quite harsh that I'll feel condemned for vanishing and irresponsible for throwing all my responsibilities behind, having the rest of the team to pick them up. But I would say that this happened for a good reason, at least for me.
Stepping out into the real world out of the comfort zone of caring people (though challenges are still a big part of church life), did good to polish my character. This is a very personal thing. Everyone is different, and the way to grow into maturity is also different. After almost 2 years away from church, today, I can finally say that God has been moulding me into a different stage of life even though I did not attend services. I've been groomed in a different way which allowed me to see things in a different perspective and gives way to a clearer understanding.
The times of sorrow is finally ending, and I'm being ushered into a great life as of this moment. Having struggled in identity, power, talent and who i really am, now I am much more assured and less fearful of people's thoughts about me. I wont say I'm completely free from people's judgment towards me, but at least I'm more comfortable with who I am now. I'm just different the way I'm made, and everybody is. I don't need the confirmation to fit into majority or my peers. Where as concerning my work as a designer, I'm blessed with an international company with very strong backup to start a new brand, and fashion branding & designing is all about me! I love branding, I love creating collections, I love telling a story through a brand, I'm a multi sports person, and this is a sports wear brand! After struggling in my micro business, and applying for 80 vacancies, this is the only one that replied, and it is by far the best job that I've ever done. More to that, I have exceptionally great people to work with. They are very down to earth, God-fearing people and a heart for humanitarian, which is also also my burden.
Walking into a new CHC KL today, makes me proud of it all. Especially when I have been absent, but everyone's been upholding me and loving me the same. That made me feel that I've never stepped out of it ever. And with Pst Kong, Sun, Pst Phil and Chris present on this special occasion, I know we're all blessed... VERY blessed.
A toast to our new future!
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