This is just what I feel like doing right now.. Swim toward infinity. Its not only what I feel like doing, but also how I feel at the moment. The road before me is just endless, and I am clueless where its going to lead me to.

7 months of investing my time, money and effort in full force into a craft business that doesn't work out, I have no choice but to surrender to the reality that this business just wont work out in my country. So, for the past 3 - 4 months, I've been trying to find an open door back to my industry - fashion design.

To my surprise, I've never experienced how difficult it is to look for a job until now. After talking to a couple of friends at the same senior levels, they are also experiencing the same thing. The industry is getting more and more competitive. Designers are not exactly a professional now. Not many companies are willing to pay high salary to hire experienced designers who know a thing or two. They'd rather spend lesser on fresh grads, even though they have no experience, but they will follow your instructions without questions asked.

Its a major whirlwind for me. Dilemma between wanting to migrate, versus eligibility, versus scarce job opportunities, and its not only in my own country, but also New Zealand, Australia, Singapore, China and Thailand. I ask myself, is it possible to remain in the industry? Or else, this will be the best time to change career. But what if fashion is my only passion? And I'm good in nothing else but doing this?

I wish its as easy as tell me how to do it.