I'm laughing because your mind is flying around.

Photo by Guido.Masi | Taken from Flickr

 I think I've been away from the society for too long. Working from home, drowned in my own thoughts, my own ideas, my career, my life, my future, my destiny, my job, my designs, my worries.. my ... my my my.... is eating up on me and I only got to realize this when I met a newly made friend for the 2nd time today.

Its a bit rude for him to be judging me base on how he sees me on just the 2nd meet up. And mind you, the 1st and 2nd meet up add up is less than 3 hours. But I guess my habits is so obvious that it can be foretold within such a short time.

I kept my cool, because if a person wants to tell you who you are from what they presume, let it be. I learnt that there is no point of arguing, since the person doesn't know you that well in the first place. But this time, it kinda made it hard for me. Firstly, I haven't had a person talk to me about myself so personally for a long time. Secondly.. coming from someone I only know so casually, builds up my defensive wall. However, being the usual me who just thinks a lot... I thought that maybe there is some truth to it if I've heard it so many times over the past many years.

"I see fear in your eyes" he said.
"You think too much before taking a step to do something"

I'm not sure if the philosophy should be, fear nothing and go for it blindly? Or, like the infamous Nike motto "Just Do It", don't think twice. My debate on that would be, there is always a different situation to every issue. I am responsible for taking that bold step to do something, and that includes the outcome of the step I take. So isn't it reasonable that a one considers carefully before doing something?

If it is that easy for me to be in this shoe, then there would be plenty of freelancers and fresh entrepreneur out there, wouldn't it? Being a freelancer, setting up your own business, IS a big thing. Your income, your future, your life all depends on every single decision you make. There is no time to waste, and every minute you have, you make good use of it to figure out how to go around this business, or that. So, I don't think it justify to say that I have fear, and my mind is flying around - Just do it!

I don't know.. you tell me. I hope I get an answer from someone out there, since my network is so small and the people that I have close contact with are all in the same shoe as i am! Maybe we're all wrong to be living this way?

J